Those are the last words I heard before I fell asleep last night. It's hard to go to sleep unhappy if that's the last thing on my mind. It's hard to drift off without a smile on my face. I like falling asleep next to you, I like waking up next to you, I like being around you.
You'll drive up the two hours because I've had a bad day. Or if I've gotten bad news. Or if I've had a close call. Or if I want a hug. You'll drive up and miss out on games, parties, races. And you say it doesn't bother you. You'll kick off your shoes, empty your pockets, and flop on the bed. I'll rub your back and you'll rest your head on my shoulder and say, "You're an angel, baby."
Those might be my favorite four words you say. I've never been that for someone, that's not a name I've been given. Sweetheart, honey, love, gorgeous, beautiful... I've had those. I like that this is different. I like how it feels like you mean it when you say it. It's all about your voice.
You don't say it all that often, which makes it feel more sincere. If you're sick and I bring you water and some medicine because I can hear you coughing while I'm making breakfast, you look up at me and say those four words. I bend down and kiss your forehead, and smile as I walk back out. If you're restless and can't fall asleep, and I let the TV run with poker because it'll give you something to do other than think about how awake you are, you'll say it to me. I roll over and burrow under the covers to block out the light, and smile while I drift off.
I love that you care about me, that you'll smile for no reason, that you'll hold my hand, put your arm around me, watch musicals with me and my crazy roommates, and put up with my constant "What do you want to do for dinner/lunch/whatever?"
I think it's little things like that phrase that makes me as happy as I am. Granted, things aren't always perfect, we have our moments, but I just like where we are. I'm glad you were patient. I'm glad you weren't insistent. I'm glad that you just waited and were a friend to me when I was lost and confused and didn't know what to do. I'm glad you were quiet when I needed to get my head straight. If not, I don't think I would have known how good this could be.
It's a long road, we're taking it a day at a time. I can't wait to see where it takes us.
