I know it's late January, but it's been a good start to the resolution season. At least I think it has.
Let's see... Resolution list update:
1. Let shit go.
Well, I've been working on it. I find that I have to do a lot of forgiving, and it's mostly of myself. Most of the anger that I hold on to is that I've let things happen to me, and there is just no excuse for it. I'm angry at myself for getting into certain situations, for letting myself get as far away from who I am as I have. I don't know if that makes much sense, but a lot of my problems have been self inflicted, and I've been blaming the wrong people. So far, while it's been hard to let go of some of those hard feelings and issues that have built up over the past however many months or years, I think I've found a lot of clarity, and I think it's something that's good for me. On the whole, I'm a lot prouder of who I am right now and the things I am doing with my life than I have in a long time. I feel like I'm finally taking charge and dealing with things instead of just moping about how awful things have been. I don't want to be that girl anymore, so I'm not.
2. Go to the gym.
Well, it hasn't been the gym, but I signed up for hot yoga at the nearby shopping center. I've been pretty good about going 5 times a week, some weeks are a little rougher than others. While I haven't really lost weight, I feel a hell of a lot better and stronger than I did, and I think things fit better. Maybe the number will go down with a little more time, after all, this is only week 3.
3. Keep up with the work....
Oh dear... That one hasn't gone too well. At least I'm not obnoxiously far behind. I'm part way through a paper, I have most of the research, and I have a decent idea for my presentation... Does it matter that I'm 4 days behind in the reading??
4. Make more art.
Partial success for month one. I dropped my studio class because I didn't like the subject and there wasn't enough time or decent materials to make anything that I would want to keep. I have been sketching here and there, though. Maybe I'll move on to painting again.
5. Learn to cook healthy and well.
Definitely been cooking more. And more things from scratch. I've been on the dailyplate.com working on tracking my calories and the foods that I eat. I still slip from time to time, I have a problem snacking, but I'm definitely making more pasta, chicken, and eating more veggies. I'm a fan of salads... : )
As for the holidays, they were okay. There was a bit of family drama, and I'll have to do a post about Las Vegas at some point. I jotted down some notes about where we went and what we did (I know, something that actually pertains to the blog's original purpose!). Matt met the family, which went pretty well, considering the crap he was coming into. Nothing like a parental spat 40 minutes before you get there to really make the house seem welcome and friendly. The family seems to like him, I think they'll like him more the more they see him. My roomates love him, as do most of my friends here (at least the ones he's met). Things are going well in that area.
I'm still deciding what I want to do for next year. New Orleans is looking better and better, especially if the acceptance rate is as high as they say. I know they're desperate for people, but I'm not so sure I'm ready for the move. I think once I set my mind to it I'll be good. I just have to get my resume together and all the crap that goes with it.
On a side note, the first thing I'm buying when I'm a real person is a new laptop. The n button has stopped working, and sometimes the left click doesn't work too well either. Plus, I think it has more viruses than I can count. Every day I run a virus scan, and every day I get rid of at least 20 files. It's horrid.
That's all for now : )
I miss Siena.
